We came across this beautiful letter titled,
"Dear Future Lover Of Mine, I Hope I Don’t Meet
You Anytime Soon" by Katrina Tamondong. It's raw. Honest. And simply beautiful all at the same time. It's a bit long of a read but totally worth it..
If the past valentine's day got you down, this one is definitely for you...
"Dear You,
I don’t know your name. I don’t know who you are or
where you are or when we will ever meet. I don’t know whether or not you are
already in my life somewhere. I don’t even know if you exist in this lifetime.
I’d like to believe you’re walking this earth someplace, but sometimes I’m not
sure if I even believe in the idea of fate and romance anymore. Maybe you can
save me from myself.
If you are in this lifetime and on this planet
though, I hope I don’t meet you anytime soon. I have a lot to learn and I will
probably hurt you, because I don’t know yet that you are the one who will make
me happy.
I’ve been through a lot. But while I wish you could
have been there with me, I know you will be proud of me because of how strong I
turned out to be and all the things I made it through without you. See, I had
to be alone for a while so I’d know what I’m capable of. And so I’d appreciate
having someone like you more.
I like being single right now because all my time
is mine. I need to be single for a while so I will not regret not having this
kind of freedom in the future. When I’m yours, I’ll be completely yours because
I had this time to be mine.
But sometimes I miss being in love. There are days
when I wish you can get here faster just so I can have the kind of love that
I’ve been waiting for since what feels like forever. But I guess it’s better
that you’re not here yet because I don’t know how to be with you right now.
I’ll probably say a lot of really stupid things and scare you away.
You won’t just the love of my life, you will also
be my best friend in the world. I’d always thought of all my old loves as best
friends at the time, but I don’t think I ever really knew what that meant. I
love that I will be able to tell you anything and everything and know that you
will be the one person in the world who understands.
We won’t always get along and we will
more-than-possibly get into some really ugly fights, but I know that in the
end, we can make it through because nothing is more important than learning and
growing together.
We are probably different people with diverse
interests, and that’s a good thing. We will make time for what is important to
the other because we like making each other happy. Of course, there will be
things that we enjoy doing together. We will spend some days curled up with a
blanket and books or popcorn and a good movie. Braveheart will always be a
favorite between us, and reruns of FRIENDS will take up some of our lazy
Sundays. But we will spend most of our time going around the world together,
seeing places we’ve only once dreamed of traveling to.
We both love to talk and laugh, and we will spend a
lot of our time getting to know each other. Even when we’ve been together 20
years, we will always find something new about the other or reminisce about the
people we once had to be to get there. And while I will probably roll my eyes
at your jokes, I will also smile just because it’s so cute how you tried to
tell the punch line.
You’ve probably loved a girl (or more) before me,
and that’s okay. I’m sorry though if you’ve gotten hurt and I wasn’t there to
make you feel better. I’ve been in love before you, too, and I’ve also gotten
my heart broken and feel like nobody could really understand. It will take a
long time before I can let anyone else in again, and maybe you feel the same
way. It will be better to find each other after going through all that, just so
we will both know how to not take being in love for granted.
We’ve both become better people separately,
something I will always be thankful for. And because of all the pain we have to
go through before we meet, we will both realize then that we deserve that
happiness and we deserve each other.
I don’t know what you look like but I know you have
kind eyes and a genuine smile. I don’t know what you do for a living but I know
that you will have time for me. I don’t know you, but I know that you can give
me hug when I’m down, hold my hand for no reason and kiss me just because you
love me.
There’s a possibility though, that you don’t exist,
and I’m writing this letter for no one. But in spite of all the cynicism I’m
entitled to, I have to believe that you’re out there somewhere. I have to
believe that all the heartache I’d ever had to endure will someday lead me to
you. I have to believe that God created you because He knew I would need you.
And while I know I’m a complete person on my own, I have to believe that
someone like you exists, someone who might not complete me, but can make life
better. More beautiful. More colorful. A man who can make me believe in love
again.
I don’t know who you are or if I’ll ever find you,
but I wish with all my heart that you’re out there, waiting, just like I am.
I know that someday I will find you. In this
lifetime, or the next, I will find you.
Yours (someday),
Me"
* Love & Peace *
- @CarrieKups
